as usual im behind

So yea i havent posted lately...alot going on at work so i havent had the time. I can say ive lost about 13 pounds total so far! it may be a small amount but in my eyes its a huge change. Im starting to feel better about myself. Despite all the rude assholes in the world who want to put me down. Im of the opinion fuck em all be who you are and be proud of it. Its a hard journey. Hell to be totaly honest 11 of those pounds came from a stomach virus when NOTHING would stay in my system. Great way to lose weight but not the way i would chose to do so myself...i hate throwing up lol.

Did spring show up early?

My god its a gorgeous 67 degrees outside right now and my fiance and i are about to go for a walk. I love it when it gets warm and i can finally get out of the house. Definately more motivation for me in the long run when i dont have to worry about freezing my ass off. Well ttfn time to work this bootay!

2 pounds?!

Oh yess im 2 pounds down! I know what your thinking...2 pounds and your excited?? well um yea hello im a big girl any small goal is great! Just dance has been a great help...Im not a huge fan of just exercising...but the idea of dancing my ass off literally is fantastic! trying my best to keep counting calories but god its hard!!!! I have gone over and i have splurged but this is a process i have to ease my way into and if 2 pounds is what i get for right now then damnit im going to take it. No one can get me off this cloud!

Just Dance

Well i must say Just Dance 1 and 2, and The Michael Jackson experiance are...HARD! not for the sake that i was sweating my rear off but because i didnt know most of the dances. Basic concept there is a person on the screen...you have to basically pretend that is you and mirror what it does. If your unfamiliar with a songs dance then you pretty much stand there going WHAT!? The nice thing is if you dont know it just watch it...that way you have a bit of notice if you try it again. If you dont do the dance it wont restart or anything like that it just keeps going. I did really well with Thriller, and Annie are you ok? but then again when your a huge music fan and youve seen the videos over and over and over again its to be expected you have the basic knowlege of the dances.

But anyway for an hour of trying to dance and then getting it i did work up a sweat. Still fighting with my knee so im not doing any of the jumping or anything that would cause it more pain...definately need to get a knee brace but thats just not in the budget so i will do what i must! Anyway so yea i definately recommend Just Dance 1 and 2 and The Michael Jackson Experiance for moving your body! There is even an option that says Just Sweat i havent tried that since im trying to learn the dances first lol.

I will keep yall updated with more info on the games as i get used to them!

Sorry!!!

Im terribly sorry i havent updated. To be honest ive been very busy with work and usualy by the time i get off im just exausted. Which is not an excuse. But i will admit excersise has been limited. Ive recently discovered my knee has some kind of issue and has caused me some pain walking up the steps. What do i blame this on...honestly my weight. I usualy watch tv in the evening and do leg lifts or some kind of floor exercise so i do not injure my knee further.

I recently purchased Just dance 1 and 2 for wii and The Michael Jackson Experiance! Im kind of excited to start trying these as i will have to get off my butt and work it! Im a huge fan of dancing...i may not be a great dancer but it is something that i like to do and works up a great sweat!

Calorie counting is proving to be easier by the day. I have a journal i keep in my purse so i can right down everything i eat and the calories its very helpful. Im a huge fan of the equate strawberries and cream weightloss drinks in the morning. I dont have alot of time to make breakfast in the morning as it is a mad dash out of the door to get to work so i just grab a shake and go with it. Ive also discovered some of these slim fast snack bars that are 100 calories are a great treat! This week has been a combination of fish, veggies and beans all week. Needless to say great protein but bad smell lol.

Now im not a huge watcher of Oprah but yesterday she had an episode about vegans. Some of the food was intreguing, and some of the people had lost weight within a week of trying this diet...Granted i love my cheese, milk, meats, poultry things like that but they were showing alternatives. I may actually try some and let you know how it works out!

Until next time :)

Welcome to my weightloss adventure

Hello to everyone reading this blog. My names Crystal. Im 26, 5'7 279 pounds as of today. Thats right the first step to recovery is admitting that i do have a problem...The problem i have is food...its my guilty pleasure, and my dirty secret. No one made me this big i did this to myself. There are many reasons why i think i am the way i am today...the main one has alot to do with my past. When i was 13 my parents split leaving me with my mother who worked full time so i basically just ate what i wanted. No i do NOT in anyway blame her for this i knew better but i didnt care i was in a state of depression with my father gone...On top of that i was raped. A spiraling depression led to over eating and eating the wrong things. I have since been to therapy for this and have somewhat but not fully gotten over that moment in my life.

So why throw it all out there in my first blog youre wondering...to me getting it out in the open is the most important thing in my "step to recovery". As i may never be a skinny girl i want to lose in total 100 pounds. My bone structure alone is wide so i dont want to look strange i just want to look healthy. I want to be able to get up the steps without being out of breath, i want to walk around my neighbor hood and feel good about myself, i want to show others that if i can do this so can they!

No ones perfect and i may fall off the wagon but its a learning experiance thats for sure and thats what im here for to learn and better myself. This isnt a journey for someone else to be happy, this is a journey for me...to try to beat some of the health issues that run in my family...to be able to buy that cute pair of jeans because im no longer a size 24/26...to just be able to walk around with a sence of pride.

So lets get started shall we? Ill start by showing you what i currently look like. Its not pretty but its who i am...





My plan to lose 100 pounds you ask? Well starting 1 day at a time. Its all about staying active, and eating right. Im trying counting calories which i should be taking in 2053 Calories a day to lose weight. I have purchased The Biggest Loser exercise dvd's and plan to pretty much kick my own ass every day. But not too brutal i dont want to injure myself in the process. So with all this being said and shown i do hope that you will come back and visit my blog often to see my adventure unfold...and to one day see me get my goal!