Lets get this straight.

Im a true slacker to this blog but now that spring is here I plan to post more and keep you all more up to date. I havent been active lately because well I wont lie ive been lazy. Stressed out at work and at home mixed with depression has sent me down a spiral that is rediculously hard to get out of and i feel horrible. Luckily no weight gain if anything ive lost a few more pounds...havent gotten on the scale lately mainly because of the depression part.

Ive started taking St. Johns Wort and Ginko for my depression. If i can go herbal i definately try that before a harsher alternative that could have insane side effects on my body. Ive been checking my blood sugar lately...it has been a bit high which i know is NOT good...So with that said today i took a step. I have several friends who are on weight watchers and are loosing weight. So ive signed up for the at home kit. I cant make it to meetings because i dont have transportation but if i have this in my life i will definately stick by it especially since im seeing results around me. Im kind of excited about this really. A little expensive for the home kit but its a one time payment deal and you get the calculator, pedometer, cookbook, lunchbox, diary and more! This will help me so much...I hope.

I really want to beat the idea of diabetes and i just dont know how to do it so hopefully with this weight loss plan i will head in the right direction. I do know that my pants have been fitting much looser lately so i suppose that is a good thing even though its slow progress it is progress non the less! Its a total overhaul of my life so to speak. A new way of thinking and doing. And with the threat of diabetes staring me in the face i think its time to tackle the demon head on and ATTEMPT to be the first in my family to beat it. No one says i will but i want to try if i can.

Like i said in the beginning when i first started this blog i dont want to be a size 0 or anything like that. Im not doing this for anyone. I want to be healthy, i want to be happy, i want to be active, i want to be able to say i beat diabetes, i want to say i can fit into those cute jeans and that cute shirt. For my own satisfaction and no one elses. Im opening my eyes to a whole new world of possibilities by taking this step. Im even considering quitting smoking as well. Not right now i need to focus on the start of weight loss since i know quitting you tend to turn to food and gain weight. 1 step at a time...hopefully weight watchers will be a step in the right direction for me. I need this. I want this. I can do this! Now this will mean that when i get home from work dont just sit there and look at the computer or the tv, go for a walk, do some in home exercising since gyms are just to expensive, just try to stay active, make dinner at a decent time for once, and then relax and unwind before bed. Like i said total life syle change...i just hope Dustin can handle it!

Wish me luck and if you have ever done weight watchers im open to opinions of it and tips!