Thursday, January 27, 2011

Welcome to my weightloss adventure

Hello to everyone reading this blog. My names Crystal. Im 26, 5'7 279 pounds as of today. Thats right the first step to recovery is admitting that i do have a problem...The problem i have is food...its my guilty pleasure, and my dirty secret. No one made me this big i did this to myself. There are many reasons why i think i am the way i am today...the main one has alot to do with my past. When i was 13 my parents split leaving me with my mother who worked full time so i basically just ate what i wanted. No i do NOT in anyway blame her for this i knew better but i didnt care i was in a state of depression with my father gone...On top of that i was raped. A spiraling depression led to over eating and eating the wrong things. I have since been to therapy for this and have somewhat but not fully gotten over that moment in my life.

So why throw it all out there in my first blog youre wondering...to me getting it out in the open is the most important thing in my "step to recovery". As i may never be a skinny girl i want to lose in total 100 pounds. My bone structure alone is wide so i dont want to look strange i just want to look healthy. I want to be able to get up the steps without being out of breath, i want to walk around my neighbor hood and feel good about myself, i want to show others that if i can do this so can they!

No ones perfect and i may fall off the wagon but its a learning experiance thats for sure and thats what im here for to learn and better myself. This isnt a journey for someone else to be happy, this is a journey for me...to try to beat some of the health issues that run in my family...to be able to buy that cute pair of jeans because im no longer a size 24/26...to just be able to walk around with a sence of pride.

So lets get started shall we? Ill start by showing you what i currently look like. Its not pretty but its who i am...





My plan to lose 100 pounds you ask? Well starting 1 day at a time. Its all about staying active, and eating right. Im trying counting calories which i should be taking in 2053 Calories a day to lose weight. I have purchased The Biggest Loser exercise dvd's and plan to pretty much kick my own ass every day. But not too brutal i dont want to injure myself in the process. So with all this being said and shown i do hope that you will come back and visit my blog often to see my adventure unfold...and to one day see me get my goal!